Speaking of investing time in the band, there have been a lot of members of Titus Andronicus over the years.
“About 22 including myself.”
But the current line-up also played some parts on A Productive Cough. So do you feel any more solidified now?
“I learned to let go of that illusion a long time ago. My buddy Dan McGhee, who plays in the great band Spider Bags, he tells me it’s not about keeping it together, it’s about putting together. You know, though – that’s the way life is. People, they come and they go and there are certain times and moments along the path of life when you and certain other people can walk that path together, and there’s eventually going to come a time when your paths are going to diverge. And when that moment happens, you can either foster feelings of resentment towards them, saying ‘Hey, you enriched my life and now you’re taking away those benefits from me and I’m not going to get to enjoy them anymore and you’re probably just doing it to be a jerk and I’m mad at you now,’ or you could say ‘Hey, this person enriched my life at this time and I’m just going to move forward along my personal path with gratitude and appreciation for the good things they brought me during that time.’
"That’s more what I’m trying to do these days. It’s easy to give more weight to the negative things because we feel them a little more viscerally. But this current line-up has been around since around this time in 2016, so that’s three whole years without anybody quitting, which is a pretty good run for me. I didn’t find any of them on Craigslist. We’ve all got pretty long relationships.”
Do you find it difficult to delve into different styles from album to album? It seems that doing that is almost making life more difficult for yourself.
“Yeah, but you’re making it sound like it’s a big chore, when it’s a joy. And I don’t know that I could do the same thing over and over again if I wanted to. The person that made the songs that made me the most famous – he’s not around anymore. That guy was a couple of complete cellular regenerations ago, to say nothing of the different formative experiences I’ve had since that time and the way that my own personal tastes have evolved.”
Do you recognise the person who shed those skin cells in those songs?
“Sometimes. I recognise that those are moments that I went through and they were valid at the time and I continue to work to validate them, but the past few years especially I’m not really that interested in writing songs that are like My Guide To Life – my narrators and stuff, it’s not like self-help music exactly. I’m not presenting myself as some kind of hero that has all the answers. I present myself as somebody that struggles for understanding and fulfilment as much as the common person does. Those are the kind of figures I relate to more easily, not some dude who’s like ‘Boy, I’ve got it all figured out!’ Fuck you. You didn’t figure out shit. You’re casting an illusion for yourself so you can make your life more comfortable so you can sleepwalk through it like the rest of these zombies.”
Presumably, writing these songs does help you figure some things out, though.
“It definitely helps – maybe it’s a bit of a cliché but it’s a form of therapy for me. And the things I tell the audience with my words, these are things I feel compelled to tell myself first. My own little personal pep talks – but I put them out in the world hopefully for the benefit of people who have had similar experiences. And when I meet people that have had those experiences and gotten positive benefits from the music and it validates them in a way that they’re not always validated in their everyday life, that in turn validates me, because I feel less lonely and alienated having met them. So it’s a nice little loop of mutual validation that we create with the audience.”
Doesn’t that teeter on the edge of the premise of the self-help thing that you’re not interested in?
“Right. But it’s less about ‘I have the answers’ and more ‘we have the questions’. And I’m asking the same questions of myself that my audience may be asking themselves. Ideally. But I can’t predict how they feel – I can only talk about my experiences and hold onto the faith that I’m not unique in my experiences, which is what I thought as a younger guy. Like ‘Oh my god, I’m the biggest freak in the world and nobody else has ever gone through this.’ But I’ve encountered the work of plenty of artists who have proven to me that that’s not so, and that’s kind of the public service that I’m trying to perform, humble as it is.”